cant turn back

okay jean my blog's not gonna be stagnant liao.. on thurs after math remedial that chooi gave super easy worksheets to do, me and tze went to eat lunch. then ended up talking and talking bout stuff from both perspectives! trying to be erm fair and just ppl xD haha but its nice talking to tze cuz she's not prejudiced bout this kinda stuff, maybe expect for her ego moments lah! then we met wn who was trying to finish her aep coursework and had a yellow aura aroud her, together with her bright yellow pants.

tze started builing sandcastles and making erm crab holes =.= how childish. lol so i was juz sitting there watching the 2 of them. then i was talking to tze bout sub combos cuz i hadn't decided by then. and she scared me by saying that i might have to join a mainstream class if almost everyone in 212 takes trip sci or hp and i was totally O.O O.O not that im biased or wtv, but if it actually happens like one gep person in a mainstream class, it juz doesnt work out. and i was freaking out bout only me and je in 213 taking double sci and that if most of the ppl in 212 take double sci as well then the trip sci ppl one class, double sci ppl one class... so the whole time i was worrying bout this and that. and i kept whacking tze cuz she said stuff that i kept responding to by saying: "WHATHE HELL!!! TZE HUI YOU DUN SCARE ME?!" so she was basically helping me a moment and freaking me out the next... which is juz weird lah. but it was a nice erm talk?

friday's choral and drama rehearsal didnt really cover a lot of stuff, but was pretty good. like we spent quite some time getting ppl's attention and stuff and were going over the scenes again and again. but the stuff was quite good for a first time! and audrey's my trainer!! hahaha throughout the whole thing she was trying to be fierce to me but it wasnt exactly very successful. cuz stuff are supposed to be the other way round! like im supposed to be the one who's fierce in real life and audrey gets scared of erm me.. LOL! but at least we sorta devised a way to make her fierce look more convincing.

speaking of that i've found something woderful for sarah to wear and it suits her role! hahaha sarah i bet you'll like it! and guess what i never wore it before =.= how interesting. was flipping through my irs stuff done in p6 yesterday and im amazed at how wonderful it was. plus how much effort i actually put in leh! i lost all those hardworking elements in me since i came to ny which is juz o.O but cant believe it lah! like i was only p5 then... and actually bothered to put in so much effort. compared to like now.. its juz so diff. i thought i had some other stuff to say... but oh well cant rmb it

i think everyone's been reflecting on drama... some ppl are blaming others... some ppl are getting blasted at... etc. well, i suppose it's inevitable since we all expected at some point in time there'll be something like this. some ppl are too dominant and want to get involved in everthing. some ppl dun wanna get involved in anything at all. some ppl try to contribute but dun really help much. some ppl dun get what the whole thing is about up till now. some ppl are getting scolded for whatever they have done. EVERYONE is getting frustrated or irritated or disappointed or sad that this is happening.

right now everyone is blaming everyone... no one is perfect. we've always had conflicts and problems in the past when it was a 213 thing. and this time of course, it's no different. but it's the last time we'll actually even have the chance to quarrel. no matter how ridiculous this may sound. there's nothing wrong with quarelling. there's nothing wrong with voicing out what you feel towards all that's happening. there's nothing wrong with complaining and blaming esp since the current situation is like this. but note that it has to be solved and will be solved. after all this bout of voivcing out yr views, we need to resolve it. thats the whole point of even pointing out the problems anyway.

i believe there has been enough of blaming, complaining, scolding, getting accused, being to dominant, not caring bout ppl's feelings, not accepting ideas, etc and all the problems that exist. i know its not easy to resolve this kind of stuff. but something has to be done about it. there will definitely be more complaining and disagreements. but i juz hope that its right now it's at its peak and will dip down slowly... it has to be done together.