sabbats week! ahaha i like my sabbats. organic cooking is like quite fun and we get A LOT of food. haha really a lot lah. the portions are quite huge. and she makes a lot of nice stuff. haha plus we have entertainment from random people infiltrating the kitchen during our sabbats. haha the humour ppl tze, erica and jinyin always stand outside and laugh. lol but tze always comes in and she got 'caught' by mrs kuan today. xD

then stained glass was finishing up the cutting and grinding of the glass pieces. lol copper foiling now.

training. i think i've juz become the most hated person on chai's hate list or something. i keep opposing him and not doing what he wants for obvious reasons. why the hell do me and wan qing need to wear wigs juz because we are acting as old people in his stupid xiao pin? and what happens when i tell him the wigs will fall off? all he can do is ask us to think of a way to prevent it from dropping, cuz if we dun think of a way there's no way that it wont drop. and he turns back and asks me why other ppl can wear wigs while fighting and yet they wont drop off.

chai: 如果你不要假发掉出来，你就想阿，想个办法让他不要掉下来吗，真是的。怎么那些人戴假发都可以打来打去，你们却不行呢？想阿，你不想怎么会知道。真是的，现在的孩子怎么这样的？

that was something along the lines of what chai said. like whathe hell? in the first place, why must me and wan qing be the ones thinking about how to attach the freaking wigs without letting it fall when we fight and fall and wtv crap. and you think it's that easy to get a wig ah? in case you dun know, you need MONEY. that stupid chai lah. not that he will even pay or anything right. then he still wants me and wan qing to change to lao ren clothes for the xiao pin then change back. so what? change to byf, kai chang, jiti, change clothes, xiao pin, change back, bi mu. wow. very fun eh? that is like so realistic and i'll probably collapse halfway in the middle of the performance. not that i dun have to walk from one end to another and wtv crap.

chai is an ass. he thinks so highly of himself juz cuz he's in charge of this foa performance. walao eh he didnt care half as much about our comps. and no wu, we dun appreciate you trying to talk to us about yr wonderful 'xiao chai' as you call him, cuz the 2 of you are in the same league and there's no point saying anything. and if you call him 小伙子, then everyone in wushu would be 幼儿. pls lah he's not that young. and somehow what the 2 of u say dun actually match. chai keeps saying that ta jian guo hen duo xue sheng, shen me yang de xue sheng mei jian guo. then wu goes on about how young chai is and we should give him a chance because he's not very experience. HAH. stop talking bout how young chai is in front of us when he's probably double our age =.= hello he may be young to you cuz you're so old but no we do not find him young.

training sucked, sucks and will continue to suck for i dunno how long. there's no point in doing it over and over again if we arent convince we should yong xin to do it. use your brains, idiot. no one is really doing the performance stuff properly lah. foa is gonna be a failure. hah. lucikly we're in the afternoon performance eh? cuz no one wants to watch us, we dun want ppl to see this kind of performance and we wont get ppl watching anyway. its not worth watching anyway.

open house yesterday was quite pointless lah. like everything was screwed up and my whole body felt like it was breaking apart thanks to 5 items on friday. or rather the falling down from sbj part. my arms feel quite dead now... and apparantly it looked quite scary when i juz piaked down like that... anyway, for open house wushu was supposed to perform in the quadrangle, but somehow it ended up being npcc. xian lah. supposed to perform jiti with 3 ppl. wth?! so we ended up getting ching yee to come after MO and alyssa and yiting to come cuz they were staying in the boarding sch. haha but when we finally did perform it was damn screwed. the quadrangle was damn slippery that i kept slipping and almost fell. plus we hadnt lianed the tao since comps ended so sorta wang dong zuo. haha sarah yr ce shuai! xD

me, grace and susi were talking bout our wushu and our batch being underpriviledged and stuff before the rest came. and we were feeling bu zhi for ourselves =.= haha but whatever lah then we talked bout next year's captain, that can actually be anyone. cuz we all have a fairly equal chance and no one is despo to become captain or anything. and emily is pro in wushu, but like a captain has to actually come for enough trainings and stuff... lol and i dun think anyone in my batch actually wants to be a captain. haha cuz it comes with all that responsibility and crap.

had lunch as a batch with the coupons and stuff which were supposed to only be enough for 10 people?! yeah right. lol then we talked bout quite a lot of stuff.. with cun zhang and all that. haha then after that went into the bs and watch ppl go crazy of mvs =.=

the holiday training is like wow... fully packed lah. and all cuz of foa. not that we're even performing for the 7.30pm show right.

I'm not happy with my grades. Not satisfied. I'm sick of getting mediocre grades, but forgot the feeling of what it's like to attain mediocrity. You nod, feel a little shitty, then get over it. Maybe get a little uplifted by the fact that you didn't get zero, and who bloody cares anyway? I've failed at a lot of stuff this year. But it's not as fascinating as getting some very high mark. I missed a lot of lessons but that's not enough to feed my ego. By all means, get what you get, and good for you, but personally I'm disgusted with whatever I've achieved so far. Achieved isn't even the right word for it. All I've done is laid back and let nature take its course.
- saw all these on jia's blog and i find it extremely appicable?

not really gonna rant bout not being satisfied with my grades, but i juz feel cheated. im getting to used to getting this kind of grades and its sickening. and i HATE it when people complain in my face about how lousy they are when im probably like an ultimate failure compared to them. so shut up now before i blow up in your face. there's something i wanna say bout 213 and 313, that after we get back our marks, it is very different in these 2 classes. 213 will have like practically the whole class ranting about their wonderfully low marks and seriously lah these ppl always HAPPEN to be those who do well. things are like more toned down in 313? when i get back my marks, i dun feel the same pressure of comparison as when i was in 213. thats because most ppl know that they shouldnt kick up a big fuss over nothing. so like if you're one of those who suck like shit with yr get back exams/marks reaction, go find your own world of friends like that and rant all you want cuz im not the least bit interested.

nowadays im getting damn sick of stuff and some ppl are juz being so fake? like i have no idea wtf you want cuz you're like trying to do who knows what. and please rmb that im not invisible and that i actually exist? like hello. no its not funny if you ignore me one moment and act like you're on 100% good terms with me the next. stop faking lah.

napfa tmr! lol its 5 stations...

whoops i havent blogged in like a loooooong time. haha this is super lag but kay hilary i'll talk bit bout 4x400m. lol i think we did like super well lah! i mean like some of us never tried runnign 400m before and we never ran together and stuff. haha lol when hui ran was running towards me to pass the baton i was still damn scared bout running 400, cuz like my long dis is =.= but eh the 400m was damn fun lah! haha overtaking ppl is damn shuang as well. we came in like 3rd in our heat which is super good lah, considering the other ppl competing.

ah going crazy nowadays. got back all the block test papers and as usual, it was disappointing. careless mistakes are like the bane of my life or something. cuz they are really damn costly. lol my history paper the best lah. 11/13 for sbq, then 4/12 for essay =.= wah piang eh end up scrape 60% xian. and on a random note, lily chua has 3 dogs and 4 cats who apparently fight for her attention and get jealous of one another when she gives one of them more attention o.O

xian lah. i cant stand getting like this kind of crappy results anymore. and no im not like those lousy ppl who have dumb ideas on what crappy means. i dun want to get used to it, but like somehow my efforts dun really pay off? its tiring to keep trying and failing like some idiot. i think like since p4 i never got results that i felt were actually up to some standard maybe cept for chinese sometimes. and the only time i do super well for everything is PSLE =.= then go to sec sch it goes back again. and now what? my chinese is screwed as well. what BSP scholar? dun come and tell me im in bsp and im a scholar so my chinese better than yours. cuz my results probably show that i have wonderfully sucky chinese. for all you know they take me off scholarship in view of my wonderful performance in chinese so far.

somehow i juz cant get what i think i deserve, esp when its not a lot to ask for. anyway training today was like waste of time lah. chai should stop bothering bout his stupid xiao pin and stop deceiving himself that he's steven spielberg in charge of some hollywood blockbuster or something. cuz he thinks too highly of himself. shouldnt we be focusing more on our jiti? the xiao pin is an additional thing, not the main focus of our performance. and he's becoming super overbearing when pai-ing the dui da parts during the xiao pin. lol so all we do is ignore chai. haha and its damn funny acting with wan qing. lol lao tai po! we'll like sit at one side and criticise him and do random stuff.

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