永远等待那一日咱可以出头天

cny celebrations today! lol but didnt really feel in the cny mood. i came to sch and realised i forgot to bring any hui chun stuff. so i juz skipped the whole thing and watched jean write her chun lian! xD hahaha i wonder if its a coincidence or on purpose *cough* but the last word of the chun lian was liu. cept that it was liu shui de liu, not ah liu de liu. aiya tong yin zi no diff lah! right jean? x)

then went to jie dai lao ren for cip =.= so we brought them to the hall and there was no space for us. so we went up to the gallery! =P hahaha shuang. and our class had a new addition of sarah! lol we went to ms chooi and told her sarah couldnt find her class. and she was talking bout her lie detector -.-''' i have this feeling she was suspicious about what me and sarah were gonna do. cuz in the gallery, she was like standing behind us for really quite a long time =.= and yes i was diao-ing all the way. finally she went to sit down so it became more normal.

i have decided im lazy so i shall kope some of sarah's post and add in my own. "I've decided that I felt both angry and..well, disappointed, firstly because I think it's rather more than slightly unfair and secondly because when we do get to, it'll be our first and last one. And I've never heard of the juniors doing and the seniors not. Which is nothing against them, not really. Now, this would be where my sarcasm kicks in and says, "Okay, sure, I suppose you wanted me to fly back from NZ every Tuesday and Thursday. And I suppose you think that, despite it being the December holidays, no one is on holiday. Haha. Very funny. I don't think." But then I decided not to be sarcastic because goodness knows, that would warrant me an even bigger scolding, no? And from what I could see of the performance, it's not like it was better than what we could have done."

so many ppl have came to ask why weren't u performing? and what do we say? that oh we're a terribly lousy batch and our juniors are wayyy better than us. not that im blaming the sec 2s, cuz they really dun have anything to do with this. the first and the last performance will be sooo fun, wont it? and at the last training chai apparently said he wanted us to perform cuz the performance was too short. but wow cuz there's no byf, we cant perform. didnt we not have byf last yr when we did nzq at cca concert last year? how amazing. so the only time we actually perform and with a byf is when we're sec 4!this is a damn sad case. it's juz exhausting to have to keep bringing this up but if we are oh so constantly reminded by that fact then i figure i might as well vent it out. frankly speaking, you should be glad we're actually feeling disappointed, sad and angry and wtv. cuz i think it will at a point reach somewhere where we really cant be bothered to feel anything. the sense of attachment is fading slowly and before you know it, it will juz fade into the background. we'll juz be going through the motion and all i can say that it's a sad case, cuz we didnt want it to happen. the truth is that today's performance was really... its so damn obvious even to ppl not in wushu. and yeah its not as though they even did it better than what we could have done. enough said.

at least we have unity within our batch =D

went back to henry park after the celebrations! and i met err a lot of ppl on the bus. le en, hern hern, karen, nol, yee win and lilia. as usual 156 was damn crowded. and i only saw nol when i got off the bus. then we went to find the rest in the staff room. but the sch made some announcement in the staff room that can be summarised as: get out now. lol it wasnt that bad but the celebrations didnt end with the intended celebratory mood due to obvious reasons.

lol so many ppl lazy go back. so it was quite stone. and omg ke yuxuan grow so fast! he's like taller than nol liao wth. damn lah means next time i see him he's gonna be taller than me liao. i still rmb him being one of the shorties in class then suddenly shoot up. hahaha and apparently li ke said he finally found someone who's stare could match mrs chong's. interesting. we watched bit of the performance and omg suddenly henry park has wushu as a cca! im not sure if the coach is weng qing hai, but i know he's called vincent, so quite likely. and they were quite pro lor! but they do everything including jiti, cept for jian. and the coolest part was that they weren't doing si duan! so cool lah. and their jiti was jitiquan that was nice! they enter and exit the time in like marching in, so very amusing. some more they all so small size! somehow even though i dun know them, i felt happier watching them. the feeling when watching the performance in henry park and nanyang was very different.

me and sharmaine went up the stairs to see the indoor sports hall they built by destroying the field. well it is nice, but i dun think the field deserved that. there's like a small pathetic plot of land there that's supposed to be called a soccer pitch. li ke came after that and we decided to shoot a bit. haha yeah bball! and soccer in between too, cuz we were kicking the ball even though it wasnt a soccer ball. that hoop is short =.= lol but it's a primary sch!! xD my shots were okay-ishly zhun. and the hoop in nice and steady, unlike the hoop in sch that looks and sounds like it's gonna drop off any second. oh and li ke can do backflip! omg damn zai lah!. like we were in the court then he suddenly asked us to see something. then he juz did a backflip in the court! and apparently he can do li yu da ting too! i think the hc wushu performance was quite zai, cuz li ke was saying that it was nice. lol shun xiang still say u not pro =.=

after that went to jelita with sharmaine! we walked around the bookstore cuz she had to buy bdae present for her friend. but the shop the stuff damn ex lor. so in the end even though spent a lot of time there, nv buy anything =.= we saw kawin. he still looks so much like nol lor! and both go same schools. damn funny when kawin waved to nol in the kidz zone. lol anyway, we came out of jelita and the 165 came so we took it to clementi. cuz i juz saw sharmaine last month, i didnt think we would talk a lot. but omg we juz talked and talked. like pah, pah, pah everything juz came out! it felt so familiar and so good to talk so casually to her.

hahaha and here i must congratulate sharmaine for graduating from the course: find yr way round singapore xD LOL cuz in bout 2 years u have changed from not knowing where to tap yr ez link card *coughs and laughs violently* to erm actually knowing yr way around =) we went to eat at this jap place that sharmaine said has nice and cheap food. hahaha turned out to be quite true. there was really a lot of liao! and i was so erm busy taking food or drinks from like 9 places or something. sounds weird i know. and they gave a plate of free stuff too! lol then sharmaine kept stealing my food *aherm*. It was really nice going out and juz talking, forgetting bout today morning and other stuff as well.

then we went to the bus interchange to wait for 173. hahaha so qiao that we both were taking 173 to meet other ppl. but the stupid 173 take so damn long lah! then we got on and sharmaine was trying to read my smses from guys =.= wow who's the one in the mixed sch? lol but she didnt find what she was looking for. not that you would have sharmaine, cuz there's nothing in there that u wanna see! x) then she got off the bus and went for her friend's party. lol sharmaine did u eat the 3 pieces of pizza in the end? went to toh yi and met eggy and tiny. nicole and her sister were there too. so played for a while then stoned under the block, while some disgusting ppl decided to play with the oranges =.=

they went to vivo so i walked to the bus stop. 67 and 961 passed by but they were full to the brim, so i thought i'd sit down and eat something. shei zhi dao, the moment i sat down the long 67 came and it was freaking empty, but no time to run to the bus liao. so i ate prata and stoned for a while before going to the bus stop. but but the craziest thing i saw when i was eating was that there were 4 67s in the span of 10, 15 minutes! omg crazy lah! and i missed them all =.=

i dunno why this post is so long, but i juz typed and typed and yeah it juz became like that.

its all an act

there's nothing to blog about these days at all. 313 is juz a terrible idea. it's scarily different and unfeeling. at least there are dumb teachers to make fun of. and i realised that late last year i was putting on this invisible mask and was juz going with the flow ying-chou ing ppl, not meaning what i say. maybe this year it juz remained. i dunno. but i feel zombie-ish in class. In the past i came to class anticipating to talk to ppl and do nonsense. now i go into class anticipating the most interesting lesson of the day. and no it has nothing to do with me becoming more guai or wtv. the atmosphere in class is so stale and so... fake. and of course it only feels real among like one or two ppl in class, which is plain scary. cuz it's like living in this world where everyone is all smiles and friendly, but many conversations not work related dun go beyond the word hi. whats there to say? and if chooi somehow decides to try and integrate us by changing our seating arrangements, sch is juz gonna become more zombie-fied.

and talking to 'old' people is amusing.

im really not getting the point of doing that anymore. it's become somewhat pointless because it wasnt our fault. juz cuz we have ppl going for long hols and stuff. and looking at whatever they're doing is juz... i dunno what to say. bleugh.

*edit*

juz realised. i have another thing to say. i have no idea why i went to so much trouble to change the day for 3rd lang. i might juz have been better off that way. cuz im juz going to be freaking tired for 3 days in a row tues, wed, thurs. and when i go home not much gets done. maybe it was better if it was on thurs. it's pathetic. and in some ways insulting. because we didnt do it on purpose or wtv. it juz happened. and some ppl were like us too in the past u know. 3 YEARS! i cant believe that okay. and it's not as though we dun try. when we do ppl dun know it. when we dont they somehow happen to know a lot bout it. how fair's that?

*edit*

and sch is juz somewhat pointless too. like we have so many slack or lousy teachers it doesnt really matter whether we have lessons or not. and the whole 212, 213 thing is never gonna be changed. it's pretty obvious cuz sometimes we cant stand them and they cant stand us. history is like the best lesson. and apparantely physics is nice too. so my original combo was a correct decision. but somehow they had to give me a choice that wasnt even a choice. certain teachers suck so much u can be doing 3rd lang throughout their whole lesson even when they are talking cock. la marks are expected to drop drastically this year for obvious reasons.

and im freaking tired these days. maybe its cuz i play bball and sometimes training falls on the same day. maybe cuz the days are damn long and draggy. or maybe there's something wrong with me.

blah these days are a drag..........

Past few days have juz been passing really slowly i suppose. And friday was shuang-ly slack. as usual ms chooi uh i mean mrs tan took her own sweet time during pccg, so we were like 10 mins late for pe. the badminton coach is quite nice lah, but talks a bit too much =X played badminton with je after pe.

oh then after that was history which was so erm fun and high. haha cuz our table only had me, alicia and amanda we can always talk bout any random thing. we had to do this ws thingy bout revolution and it was quite fun? or maybe cuz me and amanda were amusing ourselves. and i realised my brother is juz like her sister =.= how interesting. then we started talking bout how our parents compare their childhood to our childhood which was juz amusing. and then we went on and on about what we might do in the future. somehow we managed to do the ws properly despite us talking bout erm weird stuff.

then we had sil where i sat next to manda and like chooi was in front of us. haha but before it started we talked bout weird stuff again. lol then chooi kept turning round to scold ppl. lunch went to borrow that malay book then went to the hall. haha shi ting didnt dare to play cuz wn looked too fierce. the game was err okay lah. but i kept hitting tze xD in class je was asking me who shi ting was scared of. i was like duh wn! jia yu looks blur, eggy looks innocent, tiny looks amusing and wn of course looks fierce! hahaha. then chooi came into class and started scolding us. apparently we're not supposed to talk during sil. wow dun talk for 1 hour when u have yr classmates round u? and then we're not supposed to sleep. who doesnt know that? but apparently our 2 form teachers were sleeping during sil, no? i was sitting behind them so i cant be that blind you know. how contradictory.

okay wow i've left this blog dead for so wonderfully long. and like duh a lot of stuff have happened since then. so 313's ft this year is once again ms chooi! i mean MRS tan, as she wishes to be known as to us. with this co form guy called benjamin kong.the first day was juz stone and weird. cuz yeah 212 + 213 is juz weird. and wow we're divided into 2 cliques (DUH) 212 and 213. all the thirteeners were juz stoning on the first day and the twelvers the enthu ppl?

lol and also cuz sarah's in 301, jean's in 314 so its damn weird. lol sarah in 301 was juz like me when i went to henry park and when i came to ny, sorta solo-ing.

lessons today were okayish. oh during ih mrs kuan said that our class seemed very quiet. haha then shi ting was saying that all the noisy or loud ppl like: jean, lauren, celine, sim hwee, carissa are all in hp. lol it's quite true lor! we had this lucky draw thing during cct and somehow by some chance or luck, i got ms chooi, i mean mrs tan's present. there was this note inside addresed to "lucky" hmmm... well it really is some luck and coincidence.

lets hope tmr's lessons are nice