first day at hc was average. cept that we were all walking round like idiots as though we weren't yet students of hwa chong. it seems as though they aren't responsible for telling us all the stuff that we're supposed to know. so long as we're in hc and we know the program, hey we're fine! i mean, we're juz like the hc guys who have been wearing their uniform for a year, should know how the heck to tuck the shirt in, and know how to get around the school campus. 


sure.


is that indifference constant throughout or something? or rather the 'leave you there to rot and die on your own' mindset. it was like that when we went for the open house, and somehow despite knowing quite some people there, no one seemed to bother to talk to us, or even acknowledge our presence. and somehow we put our names down on that paper.


and then it was the same again today. like hello, we aren't in hc wushu but it doesn't mean that we should be left to one side. realised this is kinda obvious, but like seriously. well, im not quite sure this is the kind of cca i would join. but it's not like i'll be of any importance anyway, since we're like down here and you're like up there, and we probably wont even be needed to make the numbers or anything. plus the exploding amount of awkwardness and weirdness when we were there is really more than enough to put people off. and with our 见不得光 wushu (skills? - if it's considered), i wonder how i will ever survive if i do decide that way.