maf that day was like wow. like juniors performed and it was okay? i suppose. but the music was terrible. like damn obvious that people didn't put in effort to try and make it more in sync with the performance. and the hc wushu performance was juz epic. most of the guys did 3 xiang in one performance... and the whole standard is like WOW. not that we didnt know how pro they are, but the maf performance totally made us feel 自卑. they're like only a year older than us and the gap in our standard is... and if i end up not joining wushu in jc, then that's probably the main reason. lol maybe being zai is that good cuz u end up scaring people away.

found out that most ccas only had elections/handover a while ago or like are going to have it. wu ya wen cheated us like crap lah. crazy ass somehow decided that oh we need to handover really early this year. best part was that i was in china and got an email from susi saying that wu said we needed to hand over soon, and like a few days later she emailed me the election results. It was freaking hell only early may. neither did i vote nor knew what was going on. like hey, so much for being the captain.

apparently this applied to the whole school and we had handover during the june hols. well, apparently NOT. for wu, it's probably no big deal. i mean like, it's just handover. unfortunately for us, it's not. how long did i have as a captain? technically we had handover in august last year i think, so it should be 10 months. but in actual fact, there wasnt training after that due to eoys, and then i went china for 6 weeks so i only like started proper in december? then this year i left for china on 17th april, day after comps. and before i came back, there was elections. so i was essentially a captain for about 4 months. the whole bsp thing may to be blame for the 6 week trips, but wu made it so much worse. she made us handover at least 2 months in advance. seriously, it doesnt feel like i was the captain cuz i seriously didnt have much time as one, and it felt as though i seriously didn't do anything. the time as a sec 4/captain felt like it ended in april, on the day of comps.