its all an act

there's nothing to blog about these days at all. 313 is juz a terrible idea. it's scarily different and unfeeling. at least there are dumb teachers to make fun of. and i realised that late last year i was putting on this invisible mask and was juz going with the flow ying-chou ing ppl, not meaning what i say. maybe this year it juz remained. i dunno. but i feel zombie-ish in class. In the past i came to class anticipating to talk to ppl and do nonsense. now i go into class anticipating the most interesting lesson of the day. and no it has nothing to do with me becoming more guai or wtv. the atmosphere in class is so stale and so... fake. and of course it only feels real among like one or two ppl in class, which is plain scary. cuz it's like living in this world where everyone is all smiles and friendly, but many conversations not work related dun go beyond the word hi. whats there to say? and if chooi somehow decides to try and integrate us by changing our seating arrangements, sch is juz gonna become more zombie-fied.

and talking to 'old' people is amusing.