I suppose i feel quite relieved after EOYs, but there's always something weighing on my mind which makes me feel like: hey, exams are NOT over. of course it's malay O's that are like in forever. or at least seems like it. because when i last checked, there's only about 20 plus days left. and that isn't a lot considering the first 10 days will pass without feeling the need to study, and after which i won't feel like studying either cuz it's the 'holidays'. well, im sure.


went to marina barrage today to learn bout puisi seperti sapak. i suppose i did learn something, but the whole experience felt very -errrrr-. like going all the way to marina barrage to learn about poems. and somehow although we just sat there almost the entire time, it was damn draining. maybe cuz we had to wear long pants despite being outdoors and the weather was really uncooperative. at the very least it didn't rain. 


i wonder what's going to happen to my malay after this. im like 99.99% sure that there isn't malay in jc. actually im 100% sure. that 0.01% is juz to give me a glimmer of hope that doesn't exist anyway. makes sense? duh no. but anyway, the point is that if i stop malay after O's then within a year or less I'll be reverted to maybe my sec 1 standard which is really like non-existent. then all the effort put in in these four years is gonna be wasted =.=
damn it lah. why can they offer jap, french and german in jc but not malay? if they did offer malay as a third lang, i would definitely take it, simply cuz it's a continuation from secondary school. that's why it feels so pointless to study for O's when i know that a year later, having that cert won't make much of a difference cuz i can't speak the language anymore.

kinda surprised to be blogging now. its probably gonna be short though.


next tuesday's gonna be math paper 2, the last EOY paper, the last exam in nanyang. after which there won't be any signs of studying for a whole 3 months. of course, we'll be getting back papers. and its either that you're gonna be disappointed/complaining. In general, people are never pleased with their marks, isn't it? whether you're failing or getting 99%, its the same. like any other person, i want EOYs to come to an end. 


but then what? like what is there to do after EOYs? there's no need to study, so it's just slacking off in our last days in nanyang. it just feels very weird... as though our last days in nanyang aren't spent fruitfully.

maf that day was like wow. like juniors performed and it was okay? i suppose. but the music was terrible. like damn obvious that people didn't put in effort to try and make it more in sync with the performance. and the hc wushu performance was juz epic. most of the guys did 3 xiang in one performance... and the whole standard is like WOW. not that we didnt know how pro they are, but the maf performance totally made us feel 自卑. they're like only a year older than us and the gap in our standard is... and if i end up not joining wushu in jc, then that's probably the main reason. lol maybe being zai is that good cuz u end up scaring people away.

found out that most ccas only had elections/handover a while ago or like are going to have it. wu ya wen cheated us like crap lah. crazy ass somehow decided that oh we need to handover really early this year. best part was that i was in china and got an email from susi saying that wu said we needed to hand over soon, and like a few days later she emailed me the election results. It was freaking hell only early may. neither did i vote nor knew what was going on. like hey, so much for being the captain.

apparently this applied to the whole school and we had handover during the june hols. well, apparently NOT. for wu, it's probably no big deal. i mean like, it's just handover. unfortunately for us, it's not. how long did i have as a captain? technically we had handover in august last year i think, so it should be 10 months. but in actual fact, there wasnt training after that due to eoys, and then i went china for 6 weeks so i only like started proper in december? then this year i left for china on 17th april, day after comps. and before i came back, there was elections. so i was essentially a captain for about 4 months. the whole bsp thing may to be blame for the 6 week trips, but wu made it so much worse. she made us handover at least 2 months in advance. seriously, it doesnt feel like i was the captain cuz i seriously didnt have much time as one, and it felt as though i seriously didn't do anything. the time as a sec 4/captain felt like it ended in april, on the day of comps.

been wanting to post bout a lot of things, but either no time or just too lazy. this happened quite a while ago, but i still had to say something about it. i didn't see the need for the people in our class to chase the juniors out of the com lab juz cuz we had to do that survey. and obviously no need to tell them to **** off. i don't really care if spewing those words have become a habit for you or if being hostile is your true self, but there was no need to chase the juniors out of the com lab, especially since there were at least 40 computers and only 20 plus ppl in our class. no wonder people hate gepers. if they behave like that, what more can we expect?


pre-funfair and post funfair involved moving 3000 ice pops from audi to home ec room and back down. throughout the whole funfair i probably went up and back down carrying ice/ice pops more than 15 times. plus incessant walking the entire day made funfair pt x 10000. woke up the next day with a stiff upper body and felt paralysed =.= 


watched the yog girls and boys soccer semi finals last sat and sun! really damn awesome. first time watching a live soccer match! first semi final was between turkey and chile and it was a lot more entertaining than the second match. and there were a surprisingly large number of turkish supporters in the stands. eventually turkey lost 2-3, but both teams played quite well. all i can say is that turkey is really unlucky cuz their shots hit the woodwork thrice, 2 shots against the posts and 1 against the crossbar.


second match was between equatorial guinea and iran. iran had to wear like long sleeves and stuff cuz of what their country required, but the headgear kind of distracted them during the game i think. like when they head the ball, they had to adjust their headgear to prevent it from falling off. but the game was quite one sided cuz equatorial guinea was really too good for iran and the ball was often stuck in the iranian half, only leaving occasionally. was quite surprised that equatorial guinea took 20 minutes to score. they won 4-1 i think?

O LEVELS!

malay o levels oral today!


only started last minute prep for it on like yesterday, and chionged today. turns out that the oral was awesome! thanks to the awesome question =D we went to tiong bahru examination centre at about 2 plus and started waiting for the oral to start. it was surprisingly fast cuz all the nanyang people ended by 4pm when the actual oral started at 2.30. thought it would drag till 5 something, cuz like 11 x 15 mins...


question was about pengalaman yang awak tidak akan lupa and apa awak belajar dari pengalaman ini...


i totally wowed at the question cuz it was so broad and the questions cikgu asked us when we were practising were damn specific. i probably spent juz 5 seconds thinking before starting to talk about piala dunia (WORLD CUP AND SOCCER FTW!). lol if not for the fact that I played soccer like mad in primary school and the sort of obsession i have with soccer, i wouldnt have done so many things with relation to soccer for malay. to think i did the glog on piala dunia and i talked about menonton piala dunia for the pengalaman. heh damn satisfied and happy and relieved. especially since everyone was totally in a slacking mode today but 9 of us had to worry bout malay oral.


and the cikgus testing us were awesome! they were damn friendly and juz kept smiling and nodding as i spoke. and the bacaan was uh surprisingly easy, so much easier than the passages cikgu gave us, and there weren't even any numbers. surprisingly, i felt more confident (lol im in a malay mood now. was going to type yakin) when conversing instead of reading out the passage.


can only say that the oral was awesome, and i was damn happy they gave that question. can't believe our written paper is in 3 freaking months time =.= have to revise all over again like 1, 2 months later. the schedule is really... unbelievable

got back chinese papers today. damn xian lah, almost exactly the same as block test one, which just means that it's sickening. and almost the entire class saw the chem papers even though we didnt have chem. lol mr sit came in towards the end of recess to ask if we wanted to know our marks, and in the end this swarm of people went after him towards the science dept.


ended up not getting back math paper despite her saying so =.= and we're getting back history tmr! probably didn't do very well, but can't expect much anyway, given that my marks  have always been that. 


and i realised that this block test was the first test/exam that i have taken for like bio, chem and history. the last time was block test 2 last year. lol cuz of all the trips to china, so it turns out that eoys will be my next exam =.=


malay oral tmr! lol i feel screwed cuz i seriously didnt do anything over the long break. didnt know how to prepare so i juz left it there. what i did on tuesday was epic. woke up at like 1.30 and watched about 8 or 9 hours of tv and slept at like 12... quite shiok actually, like how often do you get to do that...

213th post. guess it took really long to get here. block test was generally manageable although chances are that the results come back being not so manageable. and the block test made me realise something bout jasmine tan. that's she's the most 标准 bitch you'll ever meet. not that i didnt know before that, but this just sealed everything. and i remember that someone reminded me that jasmine is like 茉莉, which is juz such an insult to the flower. i mean, she must have been really bad for me to take so long to realise the connection between her name and the flower.


anyway, inception is like the best movie, ever. its so good that you totally get drawn into the plot, get tricked into thinking that you are part of the show. and the kind of feeling that you get after watching it is just awesome! for once, you feel pretty smart about things, as though you know a lot.


cross country on friday was better than expected. at the very least, the weather wasn't that bad. walked with sarah for like 3km and ran for the last 200m and made it to the finish in 27 mins. it was a bid to make ourselves appear pro at the end. and uh we couldn't quite understand how some people alternated jogging and walking and ended up behind us =.= like seriously... then we had like batch outing at ikea which as usual was rather interesting, in terms of our dining habits? i dunno.


channel 5 is actually showing the community shield match between man u and chelsea. it's probably the first time im seeing an epl match on free to air. and valencia juz scored in like the 41st minute of the game. okay, i really should go watch it now.